#1. 2020

there’s a feeling that always starts in the middle of my chest. It burns like a yearning for something i’ve lost, or have yet to find.

it makes me think of the past and the present and i long for simpler times.

for dark forests, with lush greenery and cool winds. A coldness that envelops me in its embrace and holds on tight.

for vast oceans, the scent of salt and the feeling of waves caressing my cheeks.

for deep, hot sunsets. the kind that you watch from the top of a hill, and the colours blaze on all around you. the kind that makes you feel small and infinite all at once.

and for days where i wake up with happiness in my heart and a light step, and i end the day with that same warm feeling nestling down deep in my belly. drowsy evenings, soft music and low lighting that paints the walls aglow.